Sunday, April 29, 2007

PROM AND ETCETERA

MICHELLE MARIE LATOUR I HOPE YOU'RE READING MY BLOG
BECAUSE I AM UPDATING IT JUST FOR YOU.
(plus, at the end of it there are pictures!!!)

Okay
so basically, prom was AH-mazing.
It started out horribly.
My dad was supposed to pick me up at 9 to drive to Jessy's
but by 11:30 he was still MIA.
So I got Jess to call him, and turns out his car broke down.
So I ended up taking a bus to city center, found out the
bus doesn’t go to Harewood before 3... and the limo was coming at 2
So I got to Jessy's by CAB by 1:15ish, and we started my make over.
Trust me, I looked HIDEOUS.
Well, Jessy is clearly a miracle worker, because by 1:45 my hair was in gorgeous ringlets
and my make up was flawless.
Then Dave got there with the limo, but Mary and Barb (J+ M mom) were still at the hairdresser.
So Dave left to go get Tyler, cause he was calling every 3 MINUTES to ask pointless questions, which Jess and I totally didn't need, since we were doing truly girly things, and he was getting sooo restless sitting at home.
So Mary got there, we spent FOREVER trying to put her shoes on her under her 8 LAYER DRESS and Tyler and Dave got back.
Dave then proceeded to take 48969087 pictures of Tyler giving me my corsage.. it's supposed to be a huge moment or something... whatevs.
Then we took more pictures under the pretty tree and picked up Mike and Dan, then went down to the waterfront.
We got to meet Tiffany, Derek, Kelsey, Cherisse and etc. there and mingled for a bit, before going to take pictures.
As we were doing that, who happens to show up but FREAKING DEANNA PULAK AND TIANA LEVAC!!! Sooo amazing.
So, more pictures and hugs and "you're gorgeous‘s.
We eventually made it out to dinner and that was probably the biggest adventure.
The boys' moms (Donna + Dawne) kept telling Mike and Tyler to put napkins on their suits not to spill, but they ignored them... (the girls were covered in napkins; we have brains)
until there were a few spills... and the napkins came in handy.
(you GUYS, doncha know your moms are ALWAYS right??)
Then the entire meal was Donna taking 5000+ pictures of Tyler and I eating, talking, everything-ing.
Oh, and Mike and Tyler laughing at pictures of Bryans nipple.
Good times.
Then Shawn popped around (totally ditched his daughters 4th b-day party)
and gave us his best wishes and stuff.
Then we got to go BACK to the waterfront and got amazing pictures with Caitlyn FREAKIN Spence!!
Anyway, we eventually made it to the ACTUAL prom
(ooh ooh and we got pics on Dave's motorcycle somewhere in there)
the grad class pic basically took 5 years.
And Mike and Tyler ruined it by making "handicap" faces.
They're not even in our grad class.
...or from our school.
Whatevs.
So the nasty Mal-U caf was TRANSFORMED.
The highlights of my night were clearly the punch bowl that had those crazy fountains sprouting out of it, except Tiffany and I were kinda hesitant to use it at first.
Oh, and the martini glasses full of jellie bellies at our tables... and everytime you went away, they got refilled.
But basically myself, Katelyn, Carlye, Tiff, Jessy, Mary, Crystal, Derek and Mike danced the entire time.
almost 5 straight hours of dancing to horribly wonderful hip hop songs.
It was actually sooo much fun, and there were chocolate covered strawberries.
I think Tyler spent most of the night in the casino, except to make a few appearances on the dancefloor.
(note: dancing with Mike Anderson is awkward, he's pretty much over a foot taller than me)
After prom ended (midnightish?) we got the limo home and I hung out at Caitlyns house with Carlye until we passed out at 3amish.
Obviously, my favorite part of the night was talking to Michelle on the phone when I got there.
What an amazing girl she is.
I miss her sooo much.
you hear that Michelle?
Make the next 19 days fly by, ya hear?

I got up this morning at 7:30 to go to Neighborhood Church to do the joint church service thing.
It was pretty fun and Carlye and Mike were amazing on worship, despite their lack of sleep.
I gave my testimony (twice), and i got sooo many hugs from strangers afterwards.
Plus, I made Carlye, Katelyn, Caitlyn, Vanessa and Sue Reno cry.
So obviously a good response.
Doing it at 2 services was weird, cause I got prayed for by Shawn twice, talked twice, got asked the same questions by Shawn twice... and now I have to do it all over again next week at our church... and then at history maker in Chiliwack, and Full circle at the end of the month.

After church, (ready??) me, carlye, katelyn, vanessa, sue, mike, tyler, josh, Scott Falk, Tara (his wife) and their 2 boys (who are too cute) and Karen Travers.
We told the waitress it was Tyler and Mike's birthdays (Well, it was Mike's, and it's Tyler's in a few days) so with them being totally oblivious, they got sung to by the entire restaurant and got buffalo helmets on their heads... and deep-fried cheesecake.
They were not pleased. Mike refused to wear the helmet, but Tyler, although totally surprised, at least posed for pictures (I got a shot of Mike in his... lawl)

After THAT (long day) we went to Shawn's because it was Emma's birthday and we hung out in their backyard (it was soo beautiful out) and jumped on the trampoline with Emma and Katie and took cute pictures.
After a few hours, everyone went home except me and Carlye who (for some unknown reason) walked to K Travs house and hung out with her for a bit before she ditched us (Car was not amused) and I got a ride home while Carlye played on the Wii more.

Good weekend, but now I NEED to sleep.

I need proof that you read this too, Michelle.
Leave a comment!

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Saturday, April 28, 2007

Michelles

So today was pretty rad.
I had youth group after school
and everything thats been going on for the past week or so hit me.
So I pretty much had a breakdown.
Shawn locked me in a room (he likes to do that) and got me to tell him
everything that's going on.
Aside from the iffy bits, I got to hang out with my favorite person ever,
Michelle.
Okay, my second favorite person... the first being Michelle... but not the same one.
...This does kind of make sense.
Michelle Latour = amazing best friend who is currently in Halifax because she hates me
Michelle Hetu = amazing girl from youth group whom I am in love with... yeah.

Picture Reference.


Michelle # 1

Michelle #2

Coincidently, those are also the two worst pictures of me ever.
Funny how that works.

Also, as you may have noticed from picture 2, I dyed my hair... today...
It is now all one color.
And not platinum blonde.
How sad.

Yeah,
I should sleep.
I have an appointment at 10am @ JCA Spa
(AKA Jessy's house... but she likes to sound snazzy)

lovelovelove

ps.
You know who else is rad?
Chantel...



...and Tiana, Kerin, Keeley and Jen.

okay,
sleep now.



Eep prom!

Thursday, April 26, 2007

BLUHHHG

Prom = 2 days

So much totally unwanted stress.
Bleh.
Oh well, it oughta be a blast.
and I love my busy weekends.

Friday = Amazing Race
Saturday = Prom
Sunday = Testimony @ Neighborhood

Sooo sick, but hopefully I'll get better soon.

Michelle comes home in 23 days.

<3

Just one goodbye

Found a poem my brother wrote after my mom died.

Lifeless she lyed
Swollen her face
Just one Goodbye
Nothings the same

They said she would live
She was coming around
Just one Goodbye
She was gone the next day

The Doctors they lied
Where was the truth
Just one Goodbye
Then she was gone

God loaded the gun
But who pulled the trigger
Just one Goodbye
Before its all over

Never got a chance
To say what I feel
Just one Goodbye
. . . Just one goodbye

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

LOVE

Yeah, so...
My friends and I lie to have deep intense talks.


#21 Molly -|- I wanna be your last first kiss -|- says:
you don't love us
..D e a n n a - says:
i do
..D e a n n a - says:
your words are lies
#21 Molly -|- I wanna be your last first kiss -|- says:
your face are lies
..D e a n n a - says:
SEE more lies
#21 Molly -|- I wanna be your last first kiss -|- says:
SMELL more lies
#21 Molly -|- I wanna be your last first kiss -|- says:
...stinky



Caitlyn.. the chemistry between us could destroy this place says:
I wish I had more nachos
#21 Molly -|- I wanna be your last first kiss -|- says:
i wish i had nachos at all
.:Chris:. -||-.The only difference between fiction and reality is that fiction has to make sense.-||- says:
I wish I had a puppy. A puppy that would respond to thoughts.
#21 Molly -|- I wanna be your last first kiss -|- says:
a talking puppy?
.:Chris:. -||-.The only difference between fiction and reality is that fiction has to make sense.-||- says:
No, because then the puppy would divulge my thoughts.
.:Chris:. -||-.The only difference between fiction and reality is that fiction has to make sense.-||- says:
....More like a Mind-Controlled puppy
.:Chris:. -||-.The only difference between fiction and reality is that fiction has to make sense.-||- says:
Like being all "That person said I look fat" and having the puppy pee on their shoe.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Yes, even stars break.

Alone at last, sleeping to help ease my pain
And I take it back, you'll never be this close to me
And I breathe in deep; helps me avoid the state you put me in
And now that I can deal, with everything you've thrown at me
And how does it feel, to know that you could never fix the way that we see
The way you left us without any reasoning.

I lay you to rest, in my head stored away never to return
I'll forget everything you left back at home
Please know I'm always looking back on our scripted memories...


Look at how I've grown, just see,
These burdens you put on us helped guide me to be, the one I was supposed to be
He breathes in deep
Helps him realize how everything in his whole life progressed
He's fine I swear and he'll confess
To you cause tonight he'll find his was back home
Forget about the plans we made; I'll never let this go
Broken faith and wasted breath, photographs are all thats left...
Of you.

We've come along way to look back on you right now
We've spent too many days trying to find you out
We still hold close to us our memories of you...
Of you.

Monday, April 23, 2007

Run where you'll be safe

This isthe busiest flippin week ever.
I love my friends, but Michelle is leaving in 3 days and I want to hang out with her after school
or something.
I'm so swamped with Jobie crap every day and when I don't have that, it;s something with church.
GAH!
Prom in 5 days.
Yay?
Haven't even bought the tickets for Tyler and I yet.
$60 I'd rather not fork out.
Is it just me or is grad an excuse to spend all my cash?
I hate money.
It only causes problems.
I'm just pessimistic right now.
I just wish all my friends could get along.
I love you all through everything, but this is ridiculous.
That is all.
xoxo

Sunday, April 22, 2007

So I realized today that I haven't actually posted anything of substance here lately.
Maybe there was just too much to say that I couldn't voice properly.
My like has been going along so well.
That's probably a major lie. My family is a mess. My dad is depressed and there's nothing
I can do. My Opa is being put in a retirement home soon. My dad is having "job issues" and
that's affecting our "financial issues". Now I've never really been a stickler for financial security, but there are some things I just require. Like a phone, my internet connection, a house.
I'm scared. So scared.
I don't know what to do.
I want to get a job, but I'm too busy with jobies until June.
I have all the stupid grad stress of prom and grad fees and PASSING classes and I'm so freaking worried that my little perfect life is going to shatter. Again.
Back when my mom died, I had a stellar life going. Amazing friends, grades, life.
After spending months trying to hide my moms illness, I guess it was a pretty big deal when she up and died. My friends had no idea she was even very sick. They weren't sure how to deal with me, and I wasn't sure what to do either. I went on faking it. I kept everything peachy, but it wasn't. Goodbye friends,goodbye grades,goodbye perfect life.
I'm a completely different person now. My life is amazing, but in a new stronger way.
I'm a much stronger person now, and a lot more levelheaded... but I cant help but worry at the end of all this I'll be right back where I started; Not knowing who I am or where I'm going and feeling completely alone.
I know my friends care about me and I should be telling them what's going on... but I don't want to see dramatic or like I'm trying to seek attention. Just like in grade 9... I don't want to be brushed off.
All I can see in the future is turmoil, and I just want to hold onto this perfect life forever.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

ahhhheeee

I LOVE EVERYONE SO MUCH (in no specific order)


CARLYE MORRIS


TIANA LEVAC


KATELYN BLEDSOE


BEN BERGEN


PAUL MCINTRE


MICHELLE LATOUR AND DEANNA PULAK


CAMILLE LORENZ


CHARIS DOONAN-KETTERINGHAM


RHIANNON CAMERON


PEARLANNE GRAY


SARA EDGAR


TAYLOR MCINNAN


MARY ALEXANDER


...aaaand everyone else that I am lacking in pictures of<33

Sunday, April 15, 2007

DANGEROUS

...and this is what we're doing BEFORE people arrive for Dangerous

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

To do list?

Things I need to do

Pay $115.00 graduation fee
Pay $30.00 for prom ticket
Make up work I missed at school
Get Tyler to fork over his $30.00 for a prom ticket
Go shopping with Oma and Chels and get an AMAZING dress
Hang out with Michelle as much as FREAKIN possible before she leaves
Reconnect with Josh Reno because he's flippin amazing
Pass grade 12 with flying colors
Have the most fabulous summer with the most spellbinding people EVER
Visit Mrs.Van's biology class more because she's just rad
Stop skipping PE... even if it is JUST PE

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Best Thing EVER

http://www.thebricktestament.com

The entire bible acted out with lego.

Kate + Molly = AMAZING

#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
i want a boy to write a love letter to me
# 604-- katetaylor...* says:
whom would that boy be?
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
any boy
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
well
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
a boy i like
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
not a creepy boy
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
:|
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
i don't like a boy yet
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
but when i do
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
it will be that boy
# 604-- katetaylor...* says:
awe

Monday, April 9, 2007

My T-Babe

Taryn (F) :. 2.75months.4.75months .: says:
i think i finally found friends that i feel are worthy of missing, and that's a beautiful thing
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
yayy
#21 Molly -|-Be All That You Envy-|- says:
dont you love that
Taryn (F) :. 2.75months.4.75months .: says:
yuh huh!!!
Taryn (F) :. 2.75months.4.75months .: says:
u've always been on the list too:) lol
Taryn (F) :. 2.75months.4.75months .: says:
u were just kinda alone on it for a while..

Sunday, April 8, 2007

Silver Lined Clouds

I remember when I was having a hard time about a week ago Michelle sat me
down and made me tell her 10 good things that had happened to me that day
and 5 things I like about myself.
It was the hardest thing to do, but she made me promise to do it every single
day and to tell her every night on msn before I went to sleep.
Ever since my talk with Caitlyn on Friday night, it's gotten easier.
I can think of 20 things I liked about today and about myself.
Despite how crappy things turned out at Michelle's party last night, I can name
25 good things about it.
Michelle was there to show me the sun behind the clouds, and now I want to
be able to help her.
I want to be able to help everyone.
I want to be there for people like Michelle was for me, when I really truly needed it.
I want to be the one to grab someone's hand and drag them away
from "unsafe" situations like Carlye did with me today.
I want to be able to show everyone the beautiful things in life.
Because I know they're hard to find, but they're there for everyone.
Miraculous things can come from anywhere.

I remember saying that I can see now how my mom's
death brought beautiful things, but I couldn't see the good in what was
happening to me the past month or so.
Well, I see it now.
And the rest of the world should see it, too.

Thursday, April 5, 2007

The Many Rules of Prom

Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
i had to sign a bunch of forms saying my prom date wouldn't trash stuff or bring drugs or alcohol or beat up people or kick puppies
Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
and if you do they, like, kick me out of school or something
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
lol
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
kick puppies
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
well you might be getting kicked out of nd cuz all i do is kick puppies
Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
thats what worried me
your puppy kicking addiction

# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
lol
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
its hard to kick
Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
Tyler, the first step is admitting you have a problem
Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
hahahahahah
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
lol
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
i have to go to PKA
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
puppy kickers anonymous

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

FREAKING MICHELLE

Kay
So basically I just love Michelle *freakin* Latour.
She is the most amazing person I have ever come in contact with...
well, at least, besides my mom who's livin it up with Jesus right now... which puts her pretty high p there on the "rad" list...
Anyway, back to the wonder that is Michelle.
She's there for me 100% and is always supportive and never judgmental or critiquing
or... anything but wonderful.
And it's not just me... she's a complete gem to anyone she come in contact with. (well except for one person *I bought you France* but that person is a total n00b-ette so let's just let that one slide)
She's always smiling... or when she isn't; when she's totally depressed and heartbroken, she still manages to be a terrific person.
I cannot even describe how much I love and appreciate this girl and I don't even know what I'd do without her.
I'd probably not even be in existence.
Thank you for being an amazing best friend and I love you more than anything Michellie.
xoxoxo Molly

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Oh my sweet Taryn

Molly ][A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing.][ says:
amazingly cute boys
Taryn (F) :. 1day.3months .:. i wish i could do it like a boy .: says:
thats good :D
Molly ][A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing.][ says:
darn tootin
Molly ][A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing.][ says:
did i just say that
Taryn (F) :. 1day.3months .:. i wish i could do it like a boy .: says:
indeed
Taryn (F) :. 1day.3months .:. i wish i could do it like a boy .: says:
like a true wanna-be redneck

Life's a Show

You know what?
I'm ending this now.
I'm not looking back.
Things will never be like they used to be...
I'll never be back in grade 9 and things would suck more
than they do now if I hadn't left.
And things don't suck. I love everyone here so much.
People care about me and I'm just brushing it all off lately.
I am so incredibly blessed and to focus on anything but that would be
a waste. The fact is, things may have been cool there before my mom died.
And they probably still would be if she hadn't. But she did, and it changed me.
I'm glad I changed. I'm a different person now. Not better, just different.
All those people will always mean a lot to me. Shannon, Janelle, Chelsey, Meg...
but I'm not moving backwards. I have anew life.
I can keep my old friends, and I always will... but I have to stop
thinking of them as a separate part of my life.
I only have one life... and my life is in Nanaimo.
With my friends here, and with everyone from my past.
Who knows where life will lead me?
I definitely don't, but I'm stoked to find out.