If you ran to the ends of the earth, I would catch you and you would be safe...

So today we went for brunch at my Aunts house.
The biggest event to be noted is when Ewan, my 1 yr old second cousin, and I shared a 'moment' and totally jelled. We're BFF now.
I don't think I'll ever mean much to Isla apart from being her playmate. I don't need a name, I'm just that girl she can bend to her whim. I love my cousins.
Tonight I'm staying at my OTHER Aunts house in Coquitlum and I've had a pretty good time. We went for a walk around the nighborhood looking at Christmas lights like we used to do when I was little, and talked to my brother on the phone. We also watched The Bourne Ultimatum and my Uncle admitted how he's pretty much in love with Julia Stiles. Awkward for everyone.
I have a horribly sore throat and am still feeling more heartbreak-y than Christmas spirit-y.
For the entirety of this trip, no matter how many people are in the room, I always feel alone.

...if you fell down the well I would bring you a rope and take all the pain

So I'm staying at my cousin Celidh's house and I've been tossing and turning for hours, so now I've kind of given up on sleep.
So far my Chritmas has been pretty good. I got here earlier tonight and pretty much just hung out with Celidh's friends' 4 year old daughter, Taylor.
Afterwards Celidh and I watched Christmas themed chick flicks while Fred played WoW, and now everyon else is asleep while I wonder how I could NOT be.
I hope this holiday goes alright. I wish I could just feel peaceful right now, and I thought once I was here with my family everything would be better.
But nothing is.