Alright, don't worry even if things end up a bit too heavy; We'll all float on alright

Does anyone else remember that song?
Float on, by Modest Mouse.
I sure do.
It was the summer before grade 10. The summer that promised to be the best one of our lives.
Now if I ever had to make up a soundtrack of my life, that song would definitely represent that entire summer. It was blasting non-stop from my boombox in our campsite on the rodeo grounds.
Lennie, Shannon, Veronica and I hummed it everywhere we went. It was reassurance for ourselves and a promise to eachother; that we'd be best friends forever.
Now whether we were or not isn't what matters. It's the fact that one single pseudo-popular song can embody within itself an entire chapter of ones life. I find it pretty remarkable.
We're talking about classical conditioning in psychology right now. How someone can be conditioned to respond a certain way to a particular stimulus.
Every time I hear that song, I instantaneously recollect Veronica and I eating 500 packets of Blitz(™) until they tore at our stomach linings and forced us to be laid up in a bed hallucinating sheep making out on the tent walls (well, that was my specific symptom... Shannon can vouch for me), ice cream headaches, sneaking out at 3am to the beach with Shannon, sitting on my roof with Lennie deliberating about life's mysteries, swimming in Stephy's pool, living at Tori's for about 2 months, BBQ's at Bev and John's (throwing plums at cars with Danika, Tori and Steve) and parties in the cowboy lounge.

So maybe we didn't all stay best friends forever, but I don't think that matters so much.
The point is, each and every one of us will probably remember something from that summer
that changed us, even if it was in a minute way.
And together or apart, we all did float on alright.

Two sides of the same coin

No, I never did say it was worth it.
I said a lot of things; that I needed you, that you were my other half.
No, we never did say it would last forever.
We hooked pinkies and promised it was for life.
Okay, so I admit it, there was always that sneaking suspicion,
that either you or I would find something better. Something worth it.
No, we never did truly thank each other.
For the hours of condolences through a telephone wire.
And no, we never did actually apologize.
For the tear stains left on the shoulders of sweaters.
But you know what the things is about stuff like that?
I don’t think you have to.
You shouldn’t have to.
You don’t want to.
The distinction between forever and two months is insignificant.
So you leave it unspoken.
And yeah, maybe it ends.
But that just means it was real.

Molly Woodford

Blah

I hate how my friends always bring up graduation and all the moms sitting together and crying and being all best friend-y.
i hate mother daughter moments.
and how everyone assumes that you have a mom on mothers day
or how I'm going to grow up and get married and not know what the hell I'm doing and have no one to help me.

I am taking this night to be selfish and cry about how everyone has a mom except me.
Yes, EVERYONE.
Except my cousin-in-law Elisabeth.
And Courtney.
And that kid Andy from my grade 9 science class.

i hate mothers day.
and I hate mother daughter day camps.
i hate the stupid moms who take 15 million prom pictures and grad pictures and save baby teeth.
and i hate the jewelry box in the closet that has all my baby teeth in it.
I hate the moms who scream loud on graduation day and embarrass their kids.
and sit on couches and hear about their kids first broken hearts.


Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
mothers day is a pretty hateable day
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
mother daughter camps sound dumb, I've never been and never would like to
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
My mom throws up at baby teeth, and threw all mine out
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
and I too would hate a box full of teeth in my closet

Yea - FYI: Crisis is still unsolved by the way

Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
CAITLYN
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
MAKE ME STOP FALLING IN LOVE WITH MY BEST FRIEND
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
Molly
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
It'll never work between us
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
Sorry Caitlyn,
you're not my type.
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
wait, no
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
I'M doing the turning down here

On the radio

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath.
No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

I got to sit on the patented Alex-recliner... wow.

So this mother's day has been pretty uneventful.
I went to church, helped Major June with Sunday School; the kids made Mother's Day cards, and I made a Mother's day boat. Shawn helped. He had to be in there because Katie was being bratty.
He ended up making the mast and sail himself. He likes to make boats?
Then they did the the thing where they get all the kids in the church to go to the front and choose a carnation to give their mom, and then go around and give other carnations to all the other moms in the church. I went around with Essie (what a cute kid) and gave them to the women working in the kitchen and the mom's who were in the nursery with their babies.
Shawn gave me three carnations, in 3 different colors, to add to my boat.
One is being dried right now.
I actually have 4, because Emma was playing tag while holding hers (her and Katie don't understand the concept of "give flower to mommy" yet, and after they hand them to Krista like instructed, ask for them back again.) so it broke, and she gave it to me.
(It sounds like a sweet thing to do, but really it was like "My 'fwower' broke. I don't want it. You can have it." and Emma throwing a pink carnation at me.)
After church I went to the Perry's with Chelsea and Alex [and Morin, Mary, Carlye, Charis, Daryl, Kirsten and Ricky... and baby McDonald!] ...Although, to be fair, there were no actually "Perry"s at the Perry house.
Dave went out for lunch with HIS mom, Shirley was in Vancouver to see HER mom, Danae was at work (it was actually pretty funny. She was supposed to give Carlye and Morin a ride home... and Charis, but she lives with her, so it's kind of implied... but as we were all walking out to the cars she was like "Wait. Do I work today? I WORK AT 12? *looks at watch* I WORK IN NINE MINUTES! I HAVE TO GO TO WORK, NO ONE CAN RIDE WITH ME!" and she drives away.
So Carlye had to squeeze into Shawn's truck with him, Krista, Emma and Katie and Charis had to squish into Ricky's truck. Morin got a ride with me, Alex, Chelsea (+ baby) and Mary.)
and Chelsea is a McDonald now. I guess Daryl could kind of count, since he lives at the Perry's, but whatever... back to my day.

So we hung around there for awhile and Alex told Kirsten to sit on her face, and then I challenged him to sit on his own face... and he tried. Other stuff like that happened all afternoon.
(And I wonder... is Alex really ready for fatherhood?)
Then we all went home.
Pretty uneventful, but good.

Happy Mother's Day mommy.. I miss you, I love you, thank-you for being the best mom I could have ever asked for.

Fidelity

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
when it breaks my heart

Suppose I never, ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never, ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never, ever saw you
Suppose you never, ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course it's gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better better better better

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All of this music
And it breaks my heart
And It breaks my heart

I hear in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All of this music
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
and It Breaks my Heart
when it Breaks my heart
but it breaks my heart
when it breaks my heart
breaks my heart
and it breaks my heart
and it breaks my heart
and it breaks my heart
and it breaks my heart