Oh the glory that the Lord has made, and the complications you could do without

I am feeling a great amount of heartbreak for so many reasons that I can't really find the words for.
It's a painful thing; not having the necessary words.
Sometimes I wish I could cry.
It's like my tear ducts are always too proud.
Or maybe, in this case, that would make it too real.

"I read about how you touched them and they were healed.
Or even if someone just touched your cloak they were forever changed;
You let a broken women bathe your feet in her tears
And you washed your best friend’s feet
I am just wondering though, did you ever just hug people
I mean, I know that it is a silly question and all; I am sure you would have why wouldn’t you've?
But it's one of those things that was never mentioned that got me thinking about it
And how whenever there was a touch from you sins were forgiven and sickness fell
I think I’m caught up in my sins, and last time I checked all my body parts were properly working; nothing special here.
I am just a kid with a heavy heart these passing sunrises and sunsets.
I don’t think our encounter would have ended up in the gospels or anything
Because all I really need is a hug
That is okay for me to imagine, right
That’s not going to be conflicting with any sort of theology, is it
Okay good. Then hug me.
But not one of these sideways one arm around the neck type hugs
Or the ghetto right hand clasp fists elbows to chest pat pat on the back back
Or you put your right arm over my right arm and I put my left arm over your left arm and we make this weird sort of diagonal thing
No, none of those.
BEAR HUG ME MAN
Take your old school carpenter arms and throw them over my upper body leaving my arms dangling underneath yours somewhere and I can barely move them because you're squeezing me so hard.
But don’t pick me up and make my back pop because I hate it when people do that.
And hold me, hold me here in your arms until I start to cry
because I WANT TO CRY
But I just can’t seem to do it on my own
I have been teary eyed once recently but not even enough for a drip down my cheek
Theres just hurt in my soul that needs to be purged
So hold me in this hugging pose
Until the pain is flowing from my eyes and nose "