there there baby it's just textbook stuff; it's in the ABC of growing up.

Why oh WHY is it snowing in March?
This isn't even remotely right.
In any way shape or form.
And it's just supposed to snow more tonight and all day tomorrow.
I just emailed Mrs.Bourke about the jobie meeting tonight.
I'm so stressed out right now.
Stuff with my friends, with jobies.
The only thing that isn't stressing me out is youth group, dangerous, or church.
It's the thing that keeps me sane.
I wouldn't be able to handle all the rest of my problems without it.
And yet it's the thing causing so many problems with Rachel.
I know I spend more time there than with Job's Daughters.
I will always love Jobies, but youth group is just as important to me.
We're allowed to get expanded interests. Why is that a problem?
I'm not ignoring jobies for youth group.
I go to all the jobie events AND all the youth group ones.
They don't get in the way.
As for the God thing, I never asked her to love that I was a christian, just accept it.
I know that I wasn't like this when we were younger, but she wasn't like she is now either.
I'm sorry I've changed, but I like who I've become, I'm proud of myself.
For the first time in sooo long, I like what I am doing with my life, where I am headed.
Rachel has been my best friend for 7 years and that means a lot.
We're different people now, and maybe right now we just don;t mesh well together.
And if it gets to the point where I'm choosing over her and my beliefs, then she's not going to win.
I'll always love her. More than anyone else. She's been there through everything...
but maybe that's not enough. Maybe we're too different now.

In other news...
Next Saturday is Junior Youth Councils.
The people are coming to do live interviews of the teens applying to work at camp.
Eek.
17 days until RAW.
That's a little over two weeks.
Sooo stoked.
Grand sessions for Jobies in 22 days.
Then I get home and it's schooool again.
Grossy.
April is prom though,
and May is History Maker.
June school ends.
Then Summer Vaca!
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Can't wait for the next few months!

lovelovelove Chickas and Papa Citos!

Mala