Hey Mom,
I wonder if you're stressing right now because you know I only write to you when I'm upset.
Well Mama dearest, you can rest easy, because that is simply not the case.
I'm happy mom, genuinely happy.
More than happy, even. Shawn always says that happiness is a momentary feeling.
Being happy is as fleeting as my fights with Kate or being annoyed that Chelsea has the TV too loud. To be truly content with life is joyfulness. I am joyful, Mom.
Why shouldn't I be? I feel like I am on more solid ground with God, with myself and with people around me. I have amazing friends that are there for me even when I can't see them, and I am SO blessed for the opportunities offered to me.
Next weekend Andy is supposed to come to Nanaimo for the weekend, which will be cool.
We got to see Lisa before she went back to Australia. and now we'll see him, too.
Also, it's Alive Inside, a really cool Christian concert thing.
I'll get to hang out with Ben, which will be great; I miss that kid a lot.
Uncle Ted came today; I like the constant reminders that my family is looking out for me.
Oh Mom, I haven't felt this way in awhile.
Since... you were here.
I've finally reached that place when I feel you can be proud of me.
I know that you will never be ashamed of me and you'll always have that unconditional love thing.
But I don't quite have that mastered for myself, so I could still beat myself up about it.
This is going to be short, because I have a date scheduled with Caitlyn to go stare dreamily at Ben Harrison.
I love you Mom,
Thank you for being here with me every step of the way.
Love always,
Your daughter