Swimming... and drowning?

Life can often seem like swimming in the ocean during high tide.
Even if we know how to swim and jump over the big waves at just the right time,
when we least expect it - wham! We are broadsided, and find ourselves spinning
and bouncing off the bottom of the ocean with a mouth full of sand. If we fight,
it takes longer to get to the surface. But if we float with the current, we come right to the top.
Floating when we are frightened is difficult.
It takes trust and concentration.
I guess dealing with the death of my mom is similar. In order to cope, it takes trust.
The sooner I learn to float - to trust - the easier it is to discover the answers I'm seeking.