We are broken- Paramore

So I was walking home tonight listening to that song.
I wanted the walk to last forever because I felt so invigorated and at peace
and just filled with the spirit. I actually felt like I was overflowing and it was amazing.
I listened to the lyrics and for some reason I kept thinking of one person.
Actually, I've been thinking of her all weekend.
She was my best friend for many years.
She was one of my first friends when I moved to this part of the island when I was six.
I can vividly remember being drawn to her. I don't remember getting to know her, just... being friends. I guess that's how it is when you're six. Oddly enough, even at that age, things kept pulling us apart. She was ruled by her cousin, who forbid her to talk to me, we were in different classes for awhile... etcetera. In grade five we were reunited and sat beside eachother in math. Once again, something just clicked. At the time, I wasn't exactly in need of a true blue best friend like I was at age six, being new and confused and scared to death. I had 3 great bestfriends that I spent every second with, and we were moving up to middle school, where I met a lot more. Somehow though, as we moved to the crazy world of junior high, and had a total of one 40 minute class together, we got even closer. We had completely separate friends, but always found eachother again. We both took late schoolbuses every afternoon and spent every moment goofing off. Even though we weren't exactly best friends outside of our hour afterschool and our stained glass elective every other day (yeah, so I took stained glass, wanna fight about it?) I don't remember having as much fun with many other people as I did with her.
Over the next few years, we became those sideline friends; we were crazy about eachother, but only really saw eachother when we found the time. Right before entering highschool, something shifted. My longtime bestfriendship with my longtime partner-in-crime came to a halt.
I went from being one half of an excellent pair to losing most of my friends in one of those quick-arrange friendship custody agreements.
Somehow though, this sideline friend never made it into said custody equation.
She was stoked when I was free for lunch to hang out with her friends, some of whom I desperately needed to be reacquainted with (Lennie, from elementary school, prior to the :"boys-have-cooties" manifesto, Shannon, from the torturous grade 7 classroom of Mr.Smith... drama teacher from the depths of you-know-where, Hollie... see above) and some fresh faces, too (Sammi Macintosh: diva extraordinaire, Gibby: The fab new kid).
I had a whole new revamped social listing and some great friends backing me no matter what.
I guess that "no-matter-what" came sooner than expected.
When my mom died, she (whose name, if you know me, you would have probably already guessed was Veronica) cried right along with me. We spent summers togethe4r and told eachother all our secrets. It was one of those kinds of friendships.
Of course, shortly after my mother-related catastrophe, things hit a snag.
The friendship came to a standstill, I took it with a shattered heart, and I moved here.
Now I've reunited with a lot of my friends from that period in my life (Lennie, best friend sent from Heaven, and I still talk, Shannon and I hang out... ) but we never really got over
out colossal overly dramatic friendship-break up. I was mad and hurt and decided to run away from things, but we did end up talking once. It ended up making my new nanaimoian over protective friends upset, so we eventually stopped talking.
Until now... when I desperately want to talk to her... with a clear head and no post-mommy undertones that seemed to always haunt us. I want to be able to thank her for being amazing most of the time and tell her how things are going.
Despite everything, she was an amazing girl and a great 3 year closer-than-ever best friend.

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And all the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors
Cause I like to capture this voice
You came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And all the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me
Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And all the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole