Kelloggs 6:6 - Read the bible and interpret it to benefit you

Maybe it's just me, but normally God's word isn't open for selective interpretation to suit your needs.

Michelle - That thing when right or wrong is beneath you says:
hey molly, do you think when god says don't murder, what he's really saying is wait awhile and i wont be mad? or when he says premarital sex is bad, that he wont be mad if i do everything but sex until i finally give in? because i mean i waited a long time
Mollay To sink for your sins, lest grace be the wind says:
well Michelle, i think God is a pretty laid back guy everything he says is pretty open for interpretation... so whatever you feel at the time, he'll probably be cool with.



We're so funny.

Srsly though, grow a brain.

I miss Caitlyn Spence.
I miss having a big sister.

Standing in the way

And I'm the reason that you're standing still.

Let The Flames Begin

What a shame we all became such fragile broken things
A memory remains, just a tiny spark
I give it all my oxygen, to let the flames begin
So let the flames begin

Oh glory
Oh glory

This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is what we'll be
Oh glory

Somewhere weakness is our strength, and I'll die searching for it
I can't let myself regret such selfishness
My pain and all the trouble caused, no matter how long
I believe that there's hope

Buried beneath it all and
Hiding beneath it all and
Growing beneath it all and...

This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is how we'll sing

This is how we'll stand when
When they burn our houses down
This is what will be
Oh glory

Reaching as I sink down into light
To light

LOVE

Found these conversations with friends that make me love life.

MiCHelle says:
so i'm going to make it my personal mission in life to find out if he likes u
MiCHelle says:
my plan has a part system
MiCHelle says:
part a. start talking to him after 2 years of awkward silence
MiCHelle says:
part b. somehow make him trust me (shouldn't be too hard everyone else does)
MOLLY <> says:
HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAH (please don't let him like me!)
MiCHelle says:
part c. casually mention past crushes (strategically leaving my name out)
MiCHelle says:
part d. mention that he seems to like the little girls
MiCHelle says:
part e. and by little i mean young
MiCHelle says:
part f. and also short
MiCHelle says:
part g. equals molly
MiCHelle says:
I'll brb, laugh about that one for awhile

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Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
don't make me make an irresistible puppy dog face
$uper[ben] says:
do your worst
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
I'm braiding my hair
$uper[ben] says:
lol
$uper[ben] says:
ok
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
besides
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
you can't see me
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
so my puppy dog face would be put to waste
$uper[ben] says:
it'd still be funny
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
i could just say i did it
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
but actually do nothing at all
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
it's my strongest move
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
I'm not going to waste it
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
it'll take all my energy
$uper[ben] says:
well then
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
I'm like a Pokemon or something
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
...i stayed home Saturday and watched pokemon, okay?
$uper[ben] says:
whys that?
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
i needed a day of rest
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
and there was nothing else on
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
except a pokemon marathon
$uper[ben] says:
someones a little defensive
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
i actually got a little into it
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
besides the fighting, there's a sizzling subplot
$uper[ben] says:
i used to watch it
$uper[ben] says:
but then they kept adding stuff
$uper[ben] says:
i liked my pokemon better when there was 151
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
i remember when EVERYONE had pokemon cards
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
and my friends and i didn't get into it
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
except i found this bat one on the playground
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
and Lennie was gonna pay me to give it to him
$uper[ben] says:
zubat??
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
sure...
$uper[ben] says:
or possibly golbat
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
...wow Ben

[LATER]

Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
he was a black bat
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
zubat is blue
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
...that did not just come out of my mouth
$uper[ben] says:
dun dun dunnn

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Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
CAITLYN
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
MAKE ME STOP FALLING IN LOVE WITH MY BEST FRIEND
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
Molly
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
It'll never work between us
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
Molly... When sundown pales the sky, I want to hide away behind your smile. says:
Sorry Caitlyn,
you're not my type.
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
wait, no
Caitlyn.. it is in dying that we are born to eternal life says:
I'M doing the turning down here

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Caitlyn.. the chemistry between us could destroy this place says:
I wish I had more nachos
#21 Molly -|- I wanna be your last first kiss -|- says:
i wish i had nachos at all
.:Chris:. -||-.The only difference between fiction and reality is that fiction has to make sense.-||- says:
I wish I had a puppy. A puppy that would respond to thoughts.
#21 Molly -|- I wanna be your last first kiss -|- says:
a talking puppy?
.:Chris:. -||-.The only difference between fiction and reality is that fiction has to make sense.-||- says:
No, because then the puppy would divulge my thoughts.
.:Chris:. -||-.The only difference between fiction and reality is that fiction has to make sense.-||- says:
....More like a Mind-Controlled puppy
.:Chris:. -||-.The only difference between fiction and reality is that fiction has to make sense.-||- says:
Like being all "That person said I look fat" and having the puppy pee on their shoe.

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Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
i had to sign a bunch of forms saying my prom date wouldn't trash stuff or bring drugs or alcohol or beat up people or kick puppies
Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
and if you do they, like, kick me out of school or something
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
lol
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
kick puppies
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
well you might be getting kicked out of nd cuz all i do is kick puppies
Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
thats what worried me
your puppy kicking addiction
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
lol
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
its hard to kick
Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
Tyler, the first step is admitting you have a problem
Molly -|-A cynic is one who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing-|- says:
hahahahahah
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
lol
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
i have to go to PKA
# 34 | T- Paquette - Coming Back To NCS - says:
puppy kickers anonymous

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[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
I need a riiiide
Morin says:
again
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
my caitlyn-ride went to carlye's
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
wanna fight punk??
Morin says:
ok
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
i could take you
Morin says:
lol
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
im built, clearly
Morin says:
built ford tough?
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
YESSSS
Morin says:
lol
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
Id ask shawn for a ride
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
but im scared to call him
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
its one of my top 5 fears
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
"talk to shawn on the phone"
Morin says:
lololol
Morin says:
call danae
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
shes sick
Morin says:
she would be
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
no...
she is... be
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
wanna use your ride getting capabilities to get me a ride
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
wanna wanna wanna?
Morin says:
maybe the perrys will give you a ride
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
I have a phone
but Im scared to call people past.. like... 5
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
i'll just wait for daryl to pop up
Morin says:
lol
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
and ask him to ask
Morin says:
dave will pick you up just before 9
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
HOW DO YOU DO THAAAAT
Morin says:
cuz i am the man
[Molly] Close Your Eyes (PACKING) says:
clearly
Morin says:
everyone is always trying to stick it to me

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Molly Instinct of the Screaming Dimension says:
I have RAW on spring break
Sarah Grace: When you push on glass, it's bound to break. 22 Days says:
raw?
Sarah Grace: When you push on glass, it's bound to break. 22 Days says:
rats and walrus'
Sarah Grace: When you push on glass, it's bound to break. 22 Days says:
riots are weird
Sarah Grace: When you push on glass, it's bound to break. 22 Days says:
rain and water
Molly Instinct of the Screaming Dimension says:
its Ready And Willing.
Molly Instinct of the Screaming Dimension says:
hehehe
Sarah Grace: When you push on glass, it's bound to break. 22 Days says:
righteous and whicket..

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Molly+Michelle+Caitlyn+Tyler+Daryl+Deanna+Carlye ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
...but i don't care, because i love my friends more than anything and I will NOT let a boy ruin my deck party with them
Taryn :. 10days.2.5months .:. trust yourself and don't believe in any more lies .: says:
haha good!!!
Taryn :. 10days.2.5months .:. trust yourself and don't believe in any more lies .: says:
way to stay strong
Taryn :. 10days.2.5months .:. trust yourself and don't believe in any more lies .: says:
... lol
Molly+Michelle+Caitlyn+Tyler+Daryl+Deanna+Carlye ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
strong like a... llama
Molly+Michelle+Caitlyn+Tyler+Daryl+Deanna+Carlye ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
i think they're strong
Taryn :. 10days.2.5months .:. trust yourself and don't believe in any more lies .: says:
peter signed on and didn't say anything to me and now hes away
Molly+Michelle+Caitlyn+Tyler+Daryl+Deanna+Carlye ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
or a... pack mule
Taryn :. 10days.2.5months .:. trust yourself and don't believe in any more lies .: says:
if that makes u feel better
Taryn :. 10days.2.5months .:. trust yourself and don't believe in any more lies .: says:
haha pack mules are strong
Molly+Michelle+Caitlyn+Tyler+Daryl+Deanna+Carlye ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
your sadness does not make me feel better
Molly+Michelle+Caitlyn+Tyler+Daryl+Deanna+Carlye ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
so im a pack mule
Molly+Michelle+Caitlyn+Tyler+Daryl+Deanna+Carlye ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
only prettier
Taryn :. 10days.2.5months .:. trust yourself and don't believe in any more lies .: says:
haha yes
Taryn :. 10days.2.5months .:. trust yourself and don't believe in any more lies .: says:
a lot prettier
Molly+Michelle+Caitlyn+Tyler+Daryl+Deanna+Carlye ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
and not.. an impotent crossbreed between a donkey and a horse
Molly+Michelle+Caitlyn+Tyler+Daryl+Deanna+Carlye ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
or is it a buffalo?

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keeley says:
anndddd arent you going to shawns
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
oui
keeley says:
at 6?
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
oui
keeley says:
it is 6
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
no!
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
its 5:59
keeley says:
pretty much 6
keeley says:
kay now its 6
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
DON'T USE SASS WITH ME TIANA
keeley says:
uhhhh
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
uhhhh
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
why arent you at shawns
keeley says:
because im at keeleys
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
why arent we hanging out
keeley says:
i need a shower
keeley says:
we would be
keeley says:
if i didnt have to be at shawns at 6
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
IM SO CONFUSED
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
ARE YOU GOING TO SHAWNS
keeley says:
7 would be more appropriate
keeley says:
i had hosanna till 5
keeley says:
HOW IS THAT ENOUGH TIME
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
you realize i know that
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
on account of i live with caitlyn
keeley says:
i know
keeley says:
im just reminding you
Molly+Jessy+Caitlyn ["Jesus, why are you dressed up like Darth Maul?"] says:
ARE YOU GOING TO SHAWNNNSSS
keeley[ says:
i cant now. ill be late
keeley says:
anddd im at keeleys

Headlights

You set your mind on cruise control; knuckles grip the wheel in fear to let it go.
Love is empty,love is cruel,love it blindly breaks the rules.
How could you have been a fool?
It's something all of us go through.
You choke back tears and swallow lies but those wiper blades won't fix you eyes,
count on having clouded vision for at least a little while.

Superheroes. Pt. 1

-|-Mollay-|- Your love's such a stretch for my faith says:
change of topic:
if you could have any superpower, what would it be?
Ben lets celebrate with some extra xylophone says:
industructable
Ben lets celebrate with some extra xylophone says:
like colossus from xmen
Ben lets celebrate with some extra xylophone says:
hes got a metal that he controls that forms all over his boday, like a suit
-|-Mollay-|- Your love's such a stretch for my faith says:
that's alright, I suppose.
-|-Mollay-|- Your love's such a stretch for my faith says:
I'd still choose telekinesis.
That way, I could cause bootfuls of mischief
Ben lets celebrate with some extra xylophone says:
ya, that would be fun
Ben lets celebrate with some extra xylophone says:
i was thinking that but i thought not
-|-Mollay-|- Your love's such a stretch for my faith says:
well, if we had the same superpower, it'd be lame anyhow.
Cause then how could we adequately fight crime?
Ben lets celebrate with some extra xylophone says:
with our brains
-|-Mollay-|- Your love's such a stretch for my faith says:
pfft
-|-Mollay-|- Your love's such a stretch for my faith says:
brains are only good for things like trigonometry
-|-Mollay-|- Your love's such a stretch for my faith says:
and who ever heard of a villain that took over the world with math problems?
Ben lets celebrate with some extra xylophone says:
you use your mind for telekinesis
-|-Mollay-|- Your love's such a stretch for my faith says:
yeah
but they'd be expecting that.
If we had separate superpowers, it'd be harder to foil us
Ben lets celebrate with some extra xylophone says:
ya
-|-Mollay-|- Your love's such a stretch for my faith says:
exactly.

Dismantle.Repair.

One last glance in a taxi cab
Images scar my mind
Four weeks felt like years
Since your full attention was all mine
The night was young and so were we
Talked about life, God, death, and your family
Didn't want any promises,
Just my undivided honesty

and you said
Oh, things are going to change now for the better
Oh, things are going to change
Oh, they're going to change

I am the patron saint of lost causes
A fraction of who I once believed {change}
It's only a matter of time
Opinions I would try and rewrite
If life had background music playing your song
I have got to be honest, I tried to escape you
But the orchestra plays on

and they sang
Oh, things are going to change now for the better
And oh, things are going to change

Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down {repair}
You dismantle me
You dismantle me

Give me time to prove
Prove I want the rest of yours {prelude}
Call this a prelude to a lifetime of you
It's not that I hang on every word
I hang myself on what you repeat
It's not that I keep hanging on
I'm never letting go

Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down {repair}
You dismantle me
You dismantle me

Save me from myself
Save me from myself
{Help me} Save me from myself
Save me from myself

Oh, things are going to change now for the better
And oh, things are going to change

Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down {repair}
You dismantle me
You dismantle me

Consuming Fire (Stir it up in our hearts Lord, a passion for your name)

There must be more than this,
O breath of God come breathe within,
There must be more than this,
Spirit of God we wait for You.

Fill us anew we pray,
Fill us anew we pray.

Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us,

Come like a rushing wind,
Clothe us with power from on high,
Now set the captives free,
Leave us abandoned to Your praise.

Lord let Your glory fall,
Lord let Your glory fall.

Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
A passion for Your Name.

I hope to lose myself for good, I hope to find it in the end; in You

So I decided to blog, since I haven't done that in awhile.
I've wanted to, really.. I just haven't really gotten around to it... other things get in the way, and things take a back seat to whatever your top priority is.
But isn't that how it is with everything? With friends, school, family or God?
I can think of dozens of friends who put their friends on a back burner when they get into a new relationship... or ignore school because of parties and the popularity race. Then there's the kids who put everything before their family because they feel that they'll always be there. I'm not playing the guilt game here, I'm just as guilty of that as the next person; trust me, before my mom died, I would often blow her off because it was Veronica's birthday and EVERYONE was going to be there and if I didn't go the entire universe would IMPLODE on itself.
The only difference is, with my mom I kind of did that when she truly needed it. However, I know I have forgiveness and I know that my mom never held that against me, even if I do sometimes.
What about putting other things before God? Now I KNOW everyone I've ever met in my walk with God could be guilty of that... we're "only human" right? We seem to be satisfied with knowing that God will always be there for us. I mean, isn't that what we learned in Sunday School and every week at church? God will always forgive us and he will always be there for us if you just ask him. I know that it sounds like a loophole, "I can screw up as much as I want, I can do what I want, say what I want, live the way I desire, and he'll always be there for me... waiting." Now, that may be true... but the way I see it is, if you truly accept God as your Savior, if you truly love him and are grateful for everything he gives you... wouldn't you WANT to make him happy, make him proud of you, make him scream with joy
"Look! That's my Son, that's my daughter! Aren't they wonderful?"
Yeah, we may only be human... but I think maybe we should strive to be more.


TO BE CONTINUED

The Everglow

Heres a night
and it shines
And it calls us on and on
So be here by my side
And watch the stars;
They're ours
Make a wish, or just take charge
The moment comes
get lost and go far

I think that we've got what it takes
To get this heart to start beating again
So take it all the way
Whoa, whoa, now our hearts are on the everglow
So just let go and fall into it

We begin
Breathe in
Heres our chance to go for something
So this is where we win
And take the game
No blame
There's a neon light, inside it shines
And tearing down the walls in our way

I think that we've got what it takes
To get this heart to start beating again
So take it all the way
Whoa, whoa now our hearts are on the everglow
Deep inside, we both know it
Every thing's riding on this moment.
Whoa, whoa and our hearts are on the everglow
So just let go, and fall into it

Lets go inside, and look deep into the night
The light is bright enough to send
The weakest ones to go for the ride on
Oh, no, you cannot fade away

Whoa, whoa, and our hearts are on the everglow
Whoa, whoa, so just let go and fall into it
Whoa, whoa, and our hearts are on the everglow
Deep inside we both know it
Everything's riding on this moment

Whoa, whoa, and our hearts are on the everglow
Every action makes a reaction
We'll figure it out, and make it happen
Whoa, whoa, and our hearts are on the everglow
So just let go and fall into it

Eric Brocovich

Nothing new going on... I just thought this was funny.
I miss when you were my bestfriend, Lenn.

-|-Mollay-|- A promise or a dare, I'd jump if I knew you'd catch me says:
what movie?
√L3NN says:
eric brocovich
√L3NN says:
i think
√L3NN says:
it was on tbs
-|-Mollay-|- A promise or a dare, I'd jump if I knew you'd catch me says:
erin?
√L3NN says:
it came on after sitcoms
then i got stuck into watching it
-|-Mollay-|- A promise or a dare, I'd jump if I knew you'd catch me says:
Erin Brocovich is a girl, Lennie
√L3NN says:
hahaha
√L3NN says:
i know i know
√L3NN says:
i saw the movie

-|-Mollay-|- A promise or a dare, I'd jump if I knew you'd catch me says:
dear Joshua
As appealing as joining the michelle and michael crusade may sound it is
scary choppy shark infested waters. I speak from experience.
your friend, Molly
-|-Mollay-|- A promise or a dare, I'd jump if I knew you'd catch me says:
I'm so witty
Josh says:
lol

Michelle says:
I can't even believe you said that to him
Michelle says:
It's almost poetic
Michelle says:
hell, it is poetic.

Where are you? I can hear your words resounding

-|-Mollay-|- A promise or a dare, I'd jump if I knew you'd catch me says:
im kinda nervous about xlr8
-|-Mollay-|- A promise or a dare, I'd jump if I knew you'd catch me says:
what if no one likes me
-|-Mollay-|- A promise or a dare, I'd jump if I knew you'd catch me says:
people usually dont
Michelle says:
people usually do
Michelle says:
plus you have josh there
Michelle says:
and he's the odd MAN out lawl!
-|-Mollay-|- A promise or a dare, I'd jump if I knew you'd catch me says:
yeah but all his friends are there too!
I have Katelyn and she's def a great bestfriend
but our friendship is fleeting sometimes, and she knows EVERYONE
I know... Kate, Vanessa and Josh
I'm over analyzing everything, aren't I?
Michelle says:
yes
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Kay, so I know I overanalyze things.
Not as much as Michelle herself, however, but still... I do it.
I overthink and overstress... but my theory is, it's better than understressing and underthinking and then being underprepared.
It's official... I'm such a disaster.
Oh well, I'm so blessed to have my friends here for me... well, except Caitlyn.
I don't know what I'm going to do when she leaves on Thursday.
She'll be gone til Christmas and I'll have this gaping hole.
I know that she's welcomed me into her family and made my life wonderful, but that doesn't mean things wont feel treacherous without her.
Who will I watch the office obsessively with?
Who will I gaze loving at Ben Harrison with?
Who will I make fun of Chelsea Spence with???
Oh dear, everything is in turmoil.
At least I stll have Michelle.
I'll just make sure she's always over here.
Her and Mike and Tyler already promised they'd still come over when Caitlyn's gone...
so I'm defs counting on that.
Well, I'm a strong person, so I know I can get through this... it's just the first step that I have to get over right?

In other news, the book we have to read for XLR8 says in one part that we have to write down 3 things we want to accomplish. I prayed about them a lot and these are the 3 I got.
2 of which being very scary and out of character.
- Go on a missions Trip
- Start a bible study (on top of the one Ty wants to start) and mentor new girls in the Youth Group
- Write and preach a sermon in front of the church

It's not the missions trip that scares me. It's the other two.
I'm not a shy person, although I seem to be getting moreso as time wears on... I think it has to do with everything that went on with my dad somehow, but I never USED to be a shy person... but either way I'm friendly and warm to new people for the most part. I embraced a lot of the new girls in the church and I know I have the relationships with them to start this... I'm just not the leadership type. I know I have the potential to be... but I usually don't have to be. Caitlyn or Carlye take care of that. Everyone looks up to Caitlyn, and Carlye LOVES to be in control.
I guess the same thing goes for the sermon thing. Who would want to hear what I have to say? I'm not Caitlyn... I'm not Jenna. I'm not... any of that.

Well, on that pessimistic anti-egotistical note, I think I'll be going to bed now.
Grace

Unsafe Safe

Tsk. Tsk.
Just further proof in my case that Josh Mills is a total complete tool.

-|-Mollay-|- Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are says:
I don't think you can will hair growth
Josh says:
yes you can
-|-Mollay-|- Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are says:
not that I don't have faith in your hairgrowth tecniques
-|-Mollay-|- Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are says:
I'm just adding some realism to your irrational mindset
Josh says:
i'll show you irrational mindset
-|-Mollay-|- Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are says:
I don't think I want to witness that
Josh says:
if a train leaves the east station at 3 pm and is traveling at 90 miles an hour
Josh says:
and a train leaves at the exact same time from the west station at 70 miles an hour
Josh says:
and the stations are 40 miles apart
Josh says:
how long does it take you to shingle a doghouse roof with pancakes
-|-Mollay-|- Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are says:
40 minutes not including prep time
Josh says:
noice
-|-Mollay-|- Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are says:
I like to think so

Be The Change

"But if we're to follow the example Jesus set for us, sacrifice for others can't be dismissed.
Remember, too, Jesus didn't consider the idea of how much we love him or how faithfully we lived when he decided to give up his life for us. He died for all of us - the whole big messy world. "

This is my favourite line in the book Be The Change by Zach Hunter, the book we have to read for X{LR}:8. Well, one of my favourite lines... definitely in the top 10. It's just such a cool book.
Katelyn knows God called her to read it because she HATES reading and she couldn't put that book down.
It bugs me when people assume that I think I'm better than them because I'm a Christian.
Like I'm expected to feel superior because Jesus saved me.
I'm not special! Well, not in that sense. He didn't die for me, or for the millions of pastors or
avid churchgoers or monks or nuns. He died for the serial killers and the Nazi's and the tax collectors and the idol worshipers. He died for each and every person that lives, has lived or has yet to be born.
The question is, are we willing to live for him?

post-script:
This week I met Josh Mills, Michelle's newest BFF and fellow X{LR}:8-er.
He's so cool and I can't wait to spend more time with him.
(Everyone slept over + Josh last night and left a couple hours ago...
and they're coming back tomorrow to do it again.
...I love my friends.)

Ha

Dwight: Welcome to the Hotel Hell. Check in time now. Check out time is never.
Jim: Does my room have cable?
Dwight: No, and the sheets are made of fire!
Jim: Can I change rooms?
Dwight: No, we're all booked up. Hell convention in town!
Jim: Can I have a late check out?
Dwight: I'll have to talk to the manager.
Jim: You're not the manager...even in your own fantasy?
Dwight: I'm the owner....the co-owner. With Satan!
Jim: Okay, just so I understand it... in your wildest fantasy, you are in hell. And you are co-running a bed and breakfast with the devil.
Dwight: But I haven't told you my salary.
Jim: Go.
Dwight: Eighty thousand dollars a year!

And I miss who we were in that town we could call our own

So I had this feeling like I needed to post something in here, but I don't know what it is I'm supposed to say, so I guess I'll just wing it.
I'm feeling pretty sturdy with everything in my life right now.
My job isn't too terrible, but still crappy enough to still feel like work, I'm in a good place with all of my relationships, and I haven't had a "life sucks" moment for awhile. And yet, something doesn't seem right. Sometimes I just feel like I should be with my dad. Like I'm running away by not being with him. Not from an obligation to him, or from taking care of him... just the whole parent-child relationship. I don't want to be one of those self-centered kids who purposely severs their ties with their parental units simply for their own personal gain. I mean, I'm already minus one mother, can I really afford to tear myself away from my roots entirely?
Then again, maybe I'm just grasping at straws. Maybe I'm trying to hard to salvage the perfect photoshopped image I still have of my family. It was never like that, I know... things were never perfect. if it wasn't money, it was my mom's sickness, or the depression that followed.
The 5 year old inside me just wants thing to be glossy and picture perfect.
I love to remember my family as my warm and loving, albeit overprotective, big brother, my laughing and singing mom and my goofy, embarrassing, workaholic father. Just ideal enough to work. My brother is still loving and warm, but he;s also closed himself off a lot, and I don't know how to reach him. My mom is probably up in heaven singing campfire songs with Elijah, but there will always be those memories of her crying, or the dullness in her once sparkling green eyes... or worse, the ones of her unconscious in a hospital bed.
I don't know about my dad... he's happier now, or at least seems to be. He still has the embarrassment techniques down as far as I know... but nothing can be said for sure, I guess.
As for me? I don't know where I fit into my fairytale. I guess I'm the same as I am now. I have a fear of moving backwards into the past, because it was a lot more dark than everything is now... not the fairytale bits, of course, but to get there, I have to move through the nightmare part again. I guess I'm content with immortalizing my family in the past, as long as I can stay the way I am. I know that's not fair, they've all moved on... especially my mom, but if I could have my fairytale family covered in wax for eternity, I probably would.



Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way

Best Thing In The World

I have never laughed so hard.
Well except during that winking thing with Caitlyn and Elliott, but that was also utter turmoil.



PART 2!


PART 3!


PART 4!


THE SHOCKING CONCLUSION!!

Five Candles

I remember you said
Love was more than good intentions
Empty boxes on the floor
Things I never asked you for
I pray that when the wick is burned
You would say that it's all about love