Take all your pills and divide them by color and might

Sometimes I feel like I'm just selling out.
I mean, my entire life I had these dreams and aspirations. I wanted to go to a huge University and experience... life. I wanted to become a screenwriter and be one of those famous people know one really knows, but who secretly the brains behind the TV dramas they feed off of.
Now I feel like that's not possible. I have to live for God, not myself. I have to do His will. I'm not making this out to seem like it's a chore for me. It most definitely is not, I WANT to do this, with every fibre in my being, but there's still that piece of my heart that aches to live out my childlke fantasies of young adulthood at Princeton.
I'm just saying...